Jiah Khan suicide: Six-page letter found; family blames Aditya Pancholi and Suraj Pancholi

Mon, June 10, 2013 11:54am IST by
Jiah Khan suicide: Six-page letter found; family blames Aditya Pancholi and Suraj Pancholi
Yogen Shah

Jiah Khan’s mother Rabiya Amin Khan and sister Kavita have found a six-page suicide note in which the late actor has talked about her troubled romance

Though Jiah Khan’s letter isn’t addressed to anybody and does not hold anyone responsible for her suicide, nor does it mention anyone’s name, Rabiya feels that her daughter took the extreme step “only because of the trauma and the abuse she suffered at the hands of Suraj Pancholi and his father, Aditya Pancholi”. While the case is still under investigation, Rabiya has written a letter that she has released to the general public that reads:

“To all concerned,

Some sections of the media and some film industry people are speculating that my daughter Jiah committed suicide because of depression related to her career. However the truth is that it happened only because of the trauma and the abuse she suffered at the hands of Suraj Pancholi and his father Aditya Pancholi.

This I know from what Jiah shared with her sisters and me and also from this letter written by Jiah herself that I am attaching here with which was found three days later by my younger daughter in a wallet box belonging to Jiah when she was searching for some poems written by Jiah to be read out at her prayer meeting.

I have decided to make this letter public so that everyone may know the truth behind my daughter’s tragedy.”

Yours truly,

Rabiya Khan.”

The Deputy Commissioner of Police Cherring Dorje said, “Investigation will not be biased. The contents of the letter cannot be disclosed at the moment. We are taking legal opinion on the matter. We are now waiting for the forensic report to confirm Jiah’s handwriting to see whether the case can be changed from accidental death to abetting suicide.”

We reproduce the contents of the six-page note released by Jiah‘s mother, Rabiya:

“I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday. These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn’t matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you. I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore. When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this. I didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you. So I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. I never met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel constantly. No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens o hit you or cheats on you telling other girls they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and you’ve come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car. Or disrespects their family. You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me. I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something. The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives. All I wanted was you and my happiness you took both away from me. I spent money on you selflessly you would throw in my face. When I would cry for you. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this”.Subscribe to me on YouTube


  • Shania

    Omg seriously baby the guy u talking about didn’t deserve u. U would have found a way better guy…there is plenty of fish in the sea, u should have lived and showed him Wat he deserves, u should have known baby that b will always be b….RIP. think u were a beautiful babes and always will be remembered as that

  • Raj Kumar Yadav

    I suspected this after I had read the news about her suicide. However, there could be two sides of the story. 1) She was killed and it was portrayed like a suicide. 2) She committed suicide because of her love.
    I really wish Police to carry out a proper investigation. In the case of Divya Bharti’s death, Police closed the case too early saying that it was an accident. Till date, the real cause behind her sudden demise is not known.
    For me, I will never love anyone to an extent that I have to commit suicide on her betrayal. I remember one line from the song of Ajay’s Qayamat “Khad Se Bi Ziyada Tum Kabhi Kisese Pyar Nahin Karna.”
    Life is very precious. Don’t simply lose it for just so-called things. Enjoy it fully!
    I wish Salman Khan to feel this tragedy and back out of his promise to launch Suraj Pancholi in Bollywood. If Suraj gets a place in Bollywood and becomes famous, he may do the same to others as well.

    • Saira

      WHAT you wrote there.. I ABSOLUTELY agree with yo u 100%. She was way too beautiful.. to kill herself.
      She saw many disappointments, and i believe she was a strong girl. And guess what, at the time this happened, she was txting suraj, and that time HER mother was at a party with SURAJ’s father. meaning, there was to be some fishyness going on here.

      • Rekha

        People do not believed what u read !!!!!!! It was a 10 pages letter where is the rest? Why didn’t her mom put the lest up? Why did she lie before say it was not love that made her kill herself?? Why why? There are alway 2 said to the story!!! No one put a gun to her head and tell her to take away her beautiful life??? He was cheating on her but still she stay with him? He was beating her but she stay with him he made her kill her baby but she stay with him so who is the biggest fool???????

  • Saira

    IF salman launches Suraj, I will TOTALLY lose all my respect for Salman.



  • prince gupta

    heyyyyyyyy after reading the story my point of view is this that………jiah was quite awesome nd innocent …it happened very wrong that she had commited suicide but i request u all that dont suspect the wrong people in that case………….are humare life me bhi utaar chadao hote rehta hai kabhi isse breakup toh kabhi ishq……altough the case was nt serious anymore becoz it was a commom problem….agar koi reply ya response na de toh kya koi maar jata hai i think jiah ka intention kuch aur tha aur kuch aur karan tha agar woh jinda rehti toh kavi nhi chahti ki jisse wohpyar karti hai uske saath bura ho woh bhi uske matter le ke …………….suraj is quite innocent usse iss chakaar me mat fasao bhai log……………

  • Leeanne.Pillay

    Jiah Khan may have had a personality split. She acted differently towards her family and her friends.The fact that she portrayed that showed very little about her emotions & feelings. She knew how to act infront of people. She didnt want the drama so she avoided it. I truely feel that if she opened up more, fought for what she wanted & stood up for her self. She wouldve been here today. She wanted a simple life with a man who didnt respect her. She had n0 choice but to end her life And i think when she wrote her suicidal letter. She wasnt thinking about her family, friends or her fans. She wrote down her feelings that she couldnt tell any one else. She had alot of burden. When u get raped & forced to abort your baby by the one who says he loves you & wants to be with you. Your life becomes a dark one!Nothing matters any more. You feel empty & destroyed. It comes to a point where you cant & dont want to live any more. I hope shes in peace & may god unwrap the truth


    this is a very sad story sorry for the family
    pray god will comfort you in your time sadness

  • basheer

    its too hurting
    i dnt trust yet.. tht jiah s dead

  • hafiz

    suraj ka baap n ma flashed their money n wealth power at jia,s funeral,yet did not give their son enough pocket money to take jia out to dinner nor for their langoor son so as to be able to buy some condoms to avoid getting some lady pregnant,what a freaking shame,shame on u aditya n zarina.